http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHIElnuBeiAThis is the song that defines my life right now. So many things can break you as a person. They can shatter your relationships. But we are strong and we will prevail. We are building a beautiful life together and a beautiful family. We can do all things through him who gives us strength. Mikaela just turned one. Today is Valentine's Day and although we strive to show love to each other each and every day some times you need a reminder for just one specific time to shower each other with love and affection. Plus every body knows it is Valentine's Day so it is pretty hard to forget the date ;). We have a date night this weekend and I finally get to see The Vow. I can't wait. For this time in our lives we are striving to not let the world and the people around us shatter who we are. We mend the cracks in the glass and keep our relationship strong. We find strength in each other and in our Lord. We set an example for our daughter of what a marriage should be and of what we desire for her.
"Glass" Trying to live and love,
With a heart that can't be broken,
Is like trying to see the light with eyes that can't be opened.
Yeah, we both carry baggage,
We picked up on our way, so if you love me do it gently,
And I will do the same.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
Cause we are glass.
I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,
And in the darkness of this moment,
You see the good and bad.
But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,
But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake,
We might burn like gasoline and fire,
It's a chance we'll have to take.
We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
And we are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We are glass.
from
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/thompsonsquare/glass.html
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really don't have anything interesting going on. My husband is amazing and my daughter is always growing and learning new things. So I find myself thinking more about what was rather than what is. Once I had a larger family? relatives? I don't know. Dysfunctional is putting it lightly but I'm free of that now and it feels amazing. The innocent children that got lost in the decision to walk away I do miss a lot. I think of them often and some of them are not really children anymore and I miss being in their lives. I guess that's normal right? When we were young and innocent we were family. I just grew up. Life doesn't give you a choice on that, there is no turning back the clock to what you wish you didn't know. But I'm older now, wiser too but still learning. I have learned that my family (my husband and daughter) are the most important thing to me. I would do anything to protect my daughter and so I walked away. No looking back, no regrets. And wouldn't you? I mean look at this face. This face so innocent and curious about life. And she trusts me, okay really she trusts just about everybody. She's got this amazing instinct about people. But she really trusts me. You see I'm her mommy. She's the only one that knows what my heart beat sounds like from the inside and I'm the only one that knows every little thing about her. I know when a whine means, I'm hurt, I'm scared, I'm hungry, I'm frustrated, I'm angry, I'm stuck, I'm tired... The list goes on, mostly because she's a trouble maker ;) Would you do anything for her? I did. And although I have no regrets I still have a longing for the cousins that I love to the bottom of my heart and back. But this little girl, she owns my heart inside and out. It's is for her protection that I can't go back, I won't go back. The innocence of a child is something that is shamefully not always protected. When I became a mom it became my responsibility to protect her innocence no matter what. It is something I cherish more than my own life so I continue on this path that I chose for us and if I ever have doubts her daddy is there to tell me to look forward and keep going. To encourage me in my decision and firmly tell me no when I falter. I know this is so very vague but for now it has to be. Some day I'll write a novel. lol.
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I was properly chastised by a group of fellow moms that I am a part of and it has kind of become a long running joke. So, if you ever see a reference to a raccoon now, you are informed.
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